Fitness Weekly Wrap Up Week #1

Sunday, August 20

I'm going to be doing a weekly wrap up of my fitness journey post pregnancy. In the past (this blog is really for me and sometimes for you... 😉) I have really enjoyed recapping my training. This time I am planning on including more details on my training than what I did last time. Feel free to follow along each week as I'm hoping this helps me stay accountable. I don't have a gym membership anymore (it ended the end of June) so I'm going to be logging more at home stuff to do. Which will be more effort on my part, but I'm willing to do it.

Monday: I can't remember what I did.

Tuesday: Nothing that I can recall.

Wednesday: I ran/walked 1.8 miles. It took me 44 minutes. I also did 10 sumo squats, and 10 reverse lunges (L+R) when I got back home.

Thursday: Went for a walk around our neighborhood with our dogs.

Friday: I did tried this workout from that Megan shared a while ago. She posts great workouts on her Instagram account. I only managed to do 3 of them before my knees started hurting. I did make sure to stretch really good afterwards, so hopefully that will help my knee feel better.

Saturday: I ran a 3.0 mile loop from my house in 41:16. I was feeling pretty good when I started aside from the temperature outside. I walked .5km (that's what my watch was set on for some reason) and then started running. My goal was to run and be uncomfortably comfortable. I still did a run/walk based on how I was feeling. When I was running my pace was under 10:00/mile, but my average with the walking was 13:24.

I'm looking to build a base with my old 11-12/mile pace and then try and get a bit faster. I will probably include some speed sessions in the coming weeks. That was my weakness before pregnancy, and I'm going to try and be better at getting more of them in. 

Sunday: Rest Day!!

Guest Posting at Women's Running Community

Thursday, August 10

I'm sharing 10 ways to stay motivated to run over at Women's Running Community. I've been following WRC on Instagram for some time, and they always share great inspiring posts. If you're looking for motivation be sure to follow them!

Please go read my post "10 ways to stay motivated to run" and give some love!

I also took over their Instagram account today. So be sure to check them out!

Things that are Second Hand Infertility

Tuesday, August 1

I'm sure you've heard of "secondary infertility" which is the inability to conceive after birthing other biological children. Today, I'm talking about "second hand infertility" similar to second hand smoke, but with infertility.

Second Hand Infertility is your parents seeing you struggle with infertility while their friends, neighbors, co-workers, etc become grandparents. They are unable to do anything to help aside from praying and financially helping. They, like us, are silently grieving and wishing and praying that they get to become grandparents.

Here's how it is affecting us. Chase and I are the oldest on either side of our families. We both come from very small families. I have 2 siblings and Chase has 1. None of which have children, and only recently did Chase's brother get married.

Both of our parents struggled to get pregnant at some point. Chase's parents had several miscarriages before they figured out the cause (low progesterone) and were able to finally stay pregnant with him and his brother. My parents struggled with secondary infertility after having me, and my sister and I are 7 years a part due to that.

So both sets of parents can somewhat relate to our struggle with infertility, because they themselves struggled. When we first started trying we wanted to be parents and give our parents the opportunity to become grandparents. We were quiet about trying the first couple of years because, like most infertiles, we thought we would get pregnant quickly. When it didn't happen after 2 years, we told our family that we were struggling.

Around that time we told them, they started seeing their friends children become pregnant. They started feeling the same feelings we were feeling when we would see pregnancy announcements all over social media. At first they were happy for their friends, but then they started grieving and praying that they would eventually get to become grandparents.

Though I can't say it was easy watching them grieve while we struggled. I think it helped them realize how big of a blessing grand babies are and appreciate them more than the typical grandparent.

Do you know anyone that has struggled with second hand infertility?
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Things that are a Book Review: How to Cope with IVF

Tuesday, June 27

I was asked by Silvia, the author of "How to Cope with IVF: The Essential Guide for IVF First Timers," if I would write a review of her book. Silvia is located in the UK, and her book has done great there, and was looking for more outreach here in the U.S.. I was amazed at what detail went into the book, because there was a LOT more information that I found than doing just a regular search online.

This book offers support and guidance for IVF. How to take care of yourself with nutrition, meditation, exercises for the best chances at having a successful IVF cycle. It talks about things to do during IVF as well as the aftermath of IVF and what happens if your IVF cycle happens to fail.

These are some of the things that stuck out to me while reading it:
• Gives nutrition and supplements to take before and during IVF
• The best yoga positions for fertility
• Practicing mindfulness and visualization
• Lots of recipes to try - scrubs and smoothies to help with skin and boost fertility

"One of the other many benefits of meditation is that it works quickly and you can experience stress relief and feel a sense of calm within a few minutes. Meditation also does not require a big time commitment."  Even just taking a few minutes out of your day to breath in and out to a count of 8 can really help relax and rejuvenate you. I have been doing deep relaxation for the past several months, and have found this very beneficial and not sure why I didn't start it before. It would have definitely helped me undergoing IVF last July.

"I believe that if you prepare yourself properly for IVF by approaching your treatment in a holistic, practical and measured way, you stand a much better chance of coping. If you know what to expect then you can prepare yourself for it. You need to break it down into bite-size chunks, digest each bit as you go until you get the full picture." I agree with Silvia, trying to digest IVF in one go can cause panic and anxiety.

I think this book can offer guidance not just first time IVF-fers, but those who have done and failed a few IVF cycles. I learned a few things in the book (and I've done IVF twice now), and some of the smoothies sound delicious to try!

You can find and purchase the book on Amazon in kindle or paper edition.

Disclaimer: I was given a copy of the book in exchange for a review. All thoughts and opinions shared are mine and not influenced by the company in any way. 
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Selfless not Selfish

Tuesday, June 20

I've gotta be real with you today. I've been dealing with these feelings for several years and have wanted to lay them out on the blog in hopes to help someone else who may be struggling. I want you to know that this doesn't change how grateful I feel for this pregnancy. I just felt led to express my feelings about this topic. 

For the past several years I have had this lingering question in the back of my mind of, "Do I really want to be a mom?" The past 10 years of being married have been great. Though there were plenty of ups and downs, our marriage has continued to grow and we've become closer, even with our infertility trial. I feel so blessed when I know there are many whose marriage struggle or even fail with this trial or other trials.

When we found out we were pregnant that question made me second guess myself a lot. And I had all sorts of questions pop into my mind: Do I really want this? Is this really what we've been waiting so long to have? This is going to be a big change for us, am I ready for that change? Am I ready for my body to change? Am I ready to have sleepless nights? Is our marriage strong enough for a child? Do I wanna be a stay at home mom? Do I need to continue to work after baby comes? And not only was I feeling overloaded with questions I also had a lot of fears pop up too. The main fear being; I'm scared to be a parent and having to be responsible for a little being that God put me in charge of. 

I remember feeling that 9 months seemed like such a long time to wait and my body was going to change A LOT. I wasn't so sure I wanted my body to change, to gain weight, to get stretch marks or grow a large belly. The memory of those countless pregnant women complaining at how hard pregnancy is and I was worried I might be the same way.

Over the past 9 months the one thing that growing this baby has taught me is that motherhood is a completely selfless act. From fertility treatments to pregnancy to birth to becoming a mom, we are putting our bodies through so much. Then after we become a mom, we are 100% responsible for this little baby who will grow up. For me this puts a lot of pressure on me to not screw up our kids, and to make sure our kids don't end up with the sense of being entitled.

For some women this is what they've been longing for their entire lives, but for me I still have my concerns, doubts and worries.

I was on Instagram the other day and heard about Dale Partridge. I have never heard of him before, but I really enjoyed what he said about kids:

What he said really spoke to me, and I was able to get that extra reassurance that it will all work out. Even though it may be hard at times and I am sacrificing a lot, it will all be worth it. We need great future leaders, and my generation is going to be the one to raise them great.

As Dr. Meg Meeker says "Great kids are raised, not born." So I have that hope that I can raise our son to be great, even though parenting is a huge sacrifice.

• Was there a time where you felt you didn't want to be a parent?

• What has helped you want to become a mom or a dad?

If you are a parent what gives you encouragement and hope?

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Memorial Day 10k-5k-1 mile Race Recap 2017

Friday, June 9

I had completely forgotten about this race and I was reading through previous race recaps and remembered that I had ran this race before. You can read my previous race recaps here and here. I went online and sure enough it was free again and they were still putting it on this year too! YESS!

I asked Chase if he wanted to join me in the 5k and he said yes. I then got my friend Alli on board and she said since her hubby had been running he may want to do it too. I thought it would be a fun family thing to do.

The night before the race I slept horrible. I'm not sure if it was nerves or what. I mean I wasn't going to be running the entire thing, it was a free race, and so what if we happened to miss it or sleep in?!

We got up, got dressed, fed our dogs, I had a glass of chocolate milk and a banana. Then we headed out.

Since I was 36 weeks pregnant I wasn't expecting a PR. The only goal in mind was to finish under an hour. We were also pushing my friend's son in our jogging stroller.

We started towards the back of the pack and it took us a few minutes to get through the start.

The first mile or two my calves were burning. I haven't been walking/running in my altra's so my feet/calves weren't used to them. I have noticed my center of gravity has changed, so I'm sure that is another reason they were hurting.

Once I stopped focusing on my calves the race was more enjoyable.

At the point where the 10kers were meeting with the 5k group I wanted to start running with them and finish the race. It seemed like my heart was in it, but my body physically wasn't able to keep up with them.

After race photo

Chase and I ran into the finish at 52:11. What I thought was my longest 5k, but running the Dopey Challenge last year I ran a 5k in 1:01:52.  So no not my longest.

Pros: The race is free. You can purchase a shirt and a timing chip if you felt you wanted to be fast. Though there weren't any prizes awarded. The race supports our local Central Utah Veterans Home. They also had bananas and water bottles after the race. There were other fun things for the family to do after the race.
Cons: Because it was a free race you had to go off of your own watch/clock. I was surprised at how many people were there. Lots of strollers too (ours included).

Why me? But not her?

Tuesday, May 30

I don't know if there are others who feel this way, but I feel the need to share this question that has been on my mind for months now. Ever since we found out I was pregnant I have felt guilty:

• Guilty because my heart aches for my infertility sisters still struggling and waiting
• Guilty because I was pregnant but not my infertility sisters who have been struggling for just as long or longer
• Guilty for trying to feel happy amidst all the darkness of everyone's infertility struggles

After 7 years I understand that achy feeling you get in your heart. The wanting so badly to be happy for others, but sad for yourself. That achy hole that no matter what you do to try and fill it, it never fills.

My heart aches every time I go somewhere where there are a lot of women. I know that someone in the room is going through infertility, and I am most likely a trigger for them. I want to just shout to everyone and tell them what it took for us to get to this point and that they aren't alone, and to never give up.

I do try and share ANY chance I get and let people know that after 7 years of trying, we got our miracle baby. I want people to understand how grateful Chase and I both are for this miracle. It's been a long hard road with its many ups and downs and we are forever grateful. 

I'm now 36 weeks pregnant and I still feel guilty at times. Not as much as I did when I first found out, but it can still linger. When we first found out, we chose to not share the news, and I felt like I was hiding this dirty secret. The first 20 weeks I felt like I was in limbo. The reason being, I felt I couldn't relate to my infertility sisters but I also couldn't relate to anyone pregnant.  I was struggling with feeling happy for myself but sad for everyone still battling infertility. I battled with those feelings for months.

Chase recently told me I have what is called "survivors guilt." I survived through the trenches of infertility, but feel guilty now for surviving and getting pregnant. After much thought, I'm pretty sure I know where those guilty feelings are coming from, Satan. Thankfully I know God well enough that He wouldn't put a feeling of guiltiness in my heart, but that of gratitude in my heart. I need to put more trust in God, and I need to express my feelings of gratitude more often.

So the million dollar question... Why me? But not her? While I am still struggling with those feelings of guilt. I have to remind myself that everything happens for a reason. We all go through different trials for a reason. For now, I don't know the reason why, but I will keep praying and encouraging those still struggling and who feel they are alone.

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The Reason I Opened Up a Shop

Tuesday, May 16

Last September I opened a shop on my blog. Before opening, I kept getting this feeling that I needed to do something more than what I was currently doing with my job. I had seen a lot of shops on Instagram and Etsy who took the money from their shop and put it towards treatment, and that was something I was interested in doing.

When I first had the idea (well before opening the shop) I wanted to put the proceeds towards helping us pay for fertility treatments. After our nonprofit was created I decided to put 10% of my funds towards the nonprofit to help give back to others. I have a big heart and my desire is to help as many couples as I can achieve their dream of becoming parents. I felt that this was one way I could personally help give back.

After talking with Chase about my idea we decided we could invest $500 of our own income towards getting it started. I first thought I would start with selling 1 shirt, then once those all sold or I made the majority of my money back then I would add an additional shirt. I didn't want to use debt to grow a business or constantly feel the need to pull money from our own pocketbook to help fund the business.

In my efforts to start the whole process I was scared, but I still had that strong desire to move forward with my plan. I'll be honest, putting yourself out there trying to sell products, can be very scary. I don't have design skills, or a lot of business knowledge, but I do have a passion towards helping other, and that is what has kept me moving forward. 

Chase then helped me design the "Keep Calm and Pineapple On." I used this idea because I love pineapple, and I know there are a lot of Trying To Conceive (TTC) sisters who eat pineapple after IUI's and IVF to help with implantation and reduce inflammation.

Pineapple itself has such great benefits and I've talked about pineapple before on the blog.

I know there are many of you still struggling with trying to get pregnant/stay pregnant and my hope is to spread awareness and encouragement through these shirts.

I recently started selling the shirt on Etsy as well as here through my blog. And I hope to add in a few more designs in the next few months.

* Are there any designs you've seen online that you've loved? 
* Do you love Pineapple?
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Things that are NIAW: How to be your own advocate

Friday, April 28

As National Infertility Awareness Week comes to a close I wanted to encourage you to be your own advocate in regards to your fertility health.

There are so many reasons we need to be an advocate for ourselves and for our bodies. I will give you a few examples from my own life. I have been to the doctor a number of times for physicals. Each year they do the routine pap exam (though it's not as frequent anymore) and draw blood to check cholesterol, white blood cells, hematocrit, etc. FYI they don't (at least at my doctor) check vitamin levels unless you ask.

There have been a number of times I have gotten a call letting me know that my blood tests came back within the normal limits. That's great that my results are in the normal limits, but what if they were on the upper or lower limit of being normal. There was no way to tell just by what they said over the phone. Yet, all I have to do is ask them for a copy myself, and the clinic is required to share.

Another experience, last April I went into the doctor because I was told Vitamin B deficiencies run in families, and so I thought I should get checked out. The doctor I went to (not my normal doctor) didn't seem curious, and I got the vibe that he was annoyed with me wanting to know. He also told me that checking vitamins aren't always accurate and can be misleading. I thought, does that mean all of the blood tests that they do are then inconclusive?! He then said there have been studies shown that having thyroid issues can play a role on fertility and cause infertility. I for 1, already knew that and 2, my fertility doctor had already addressed that issue. After getting my blood drawn, I hadn't heard from them a few days after so I called to get my results and asked for a copy of my results. All vitamins (including my thyroid) were normal or even high, but my vitamin D was on the low end of normal, yet they told me everything was normal.

The last example is during our IVF cycles with our fertility clinic at every appointment they would do a follicle scan, and check my estrogen levels. There were several days where I would walk out of the clinic not knowing how many follicles I had, and when they called they wouldn't tell me my estrogen level. I had to ask them, every time. It can be tiring to ask every time and at every appointment. It is worth it to know how you progressed, so you can keep track and ask questions to the doctor if your IVF cycle happens to fail. Or for journaling purposes if your cycle is successful you can get an idea on how it went the last time. 

Here's a few ideas on how you can be an advocate for your own health:

1. Research the crap out of everything. It's important, and with how much information is on the internet you can find different things to try or bring up to your fertility doctor. They know a lot, and can carefully explain why they think it is or isn't a good idea.

2. Have a list of questions to ask your doctor. Use the support groups on FaceBook, ask your Instagram followers. You can check out BEATinfertility - Heather has created a support group app that isn't connected to Facebook. Be sure to ask for clarification on what certain procedures/tests are for so you fully understand them.

3. Take pen and paper to take notes. You could even record your visit with your doctor so you can reference back to it, and take more detailed notes.

4. After your visit, talk to your significant other about what was discussed. You want to make sure you have a plan that you both agree on. You can also pray about what was discussed and decide if moving forward is the right thing for you.

5. Speak up if you aren't comfortable with a test or procedure, or if you aren't ready to move forward with treatments. For example, I was very uncomfortable when I got a saline ultrasound and they tried to hurry as quickly as possible knowing how uncomfortable I was.

6. Ask a friend who has gone through it before to go to an appointment with you. It's also helpful if you feel you are too scared to ask questions or speak up on your own.

7. You can always, always get a second opinion. Sometimes it's nice to have a fresh set of eyes to scan through your chart.

8. AND last but not least, you can always switch doctors if you feel that you aren't being taken care of. 

How have you been your own advocate for your health?
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Things that are NIAW: Infertility Humor

Wednesday, April 26

Infertility can be tough some days. Growing up I dealt with those tough days a grumpy, angry mess, because that's how my parents dealt with tough days. When I got married, Chase was the complete opposite. He enjoyed laughing and watching funny videos to get through those tough days. He has since helped me to lighten up when I start to become angry and grumpy.

I'm not saying that you can't have "terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days," cause I still have them. What I'm saying is come in with a mindset that it's just a day, and tomorrow may be better. You can still laugh and enjoy life with those hard days.

So on bad days here are some funny #TTC humor that will help lighten your mood when you need a good laugh:

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National Infertility Awareness Week: The Hope for Fertility Foundation

Sunday, April 23

For the beginning of National Infertility Awareness Week I thought it would be beneficial to talk about the foundation that my husband, Chase, and I started, The Hope for Fertility Foundation. I know there are a lot of nonprofits that help with growing families, either giving support and knowledge to the community like Resolve and Utah Infertility Resource Center. But there are also other nonprofits which help give grants to couples seeking fertility treatments and adoption.

The theme that Resolve put out for this years National Infertility Awareness Week is #listenup. Well this is how and why we started our nonprofit so LISTENUP:

Chase and I had been going through infertility for 6 years when we created The Hope for Fertility Foundation. Leading up to the creation of the foundation, friends and family would ask how they could help us, knowing of our struggle. Yes, coming over and cleaning my house, or bringing us dinner is nice, but it's not what we needed, and I'm sure there are many that feel the same. We needed help paying for our fertility treatments, which really was just the cash to pay for in vitro fertilization (IVF). We decided to start a Go Fund Me page. There, people could give a small or large donation to help us offset the cost of our upcoming IVF cycle. In our efforts to raise funds, we got a LOT of negative feedback, people (a lot of who we didn't even know) saying how Chase and I were just asking for a handout, and that it was our "choice" to have children.
After that push back, instead of being saddened and hurt by what others were saying we took that motivation and decided to have a big yard sale fundraiser with a bake sale, yard sale, character meet-n-greets, food trucks, and possibly a silent auction. We created a little committee and went to work asking for donations for the yard sale. In this process we realized that businesses wouldn't donate to us directly for our silent auction, but they would to a nonprofit. That's when we created The Hope for Fertility Foundation. During our creation as well as doing our big fundraiser, Chase and I were saving up any and all cash that we could, to cover the cost of our upcoming IVF cycle on our own. We created the foundation with just myself, my husband and one of our dear friends. We were able to get the necessary permits, and all the donations that we could to help make the fundraiser a success. At the end of the fundraiser we were able to raise just over $4,000.

By July of 2016, Chase and I saved up roughly $14,000 in 4.5 months by ourselves. We were blessed by God, and felt that this was His way directing us to help others in need. In our hearts we want to be able to help everyone. We obviously can't help others without sharing our Foundations story first, and getting the necessary donations to be able to spread hope. Since July, our board of directors has created a grant application, and in March we gave away our first grant.

We have 2 application periods per calendar year, spring and fall, and we just closed our first grant application for the spring grant (Feb 1, 2017). Since The Hope for Fertility is a nonprofit and all of our board members are not paid, we only have what we collect in donations or our fundraising efforts to be able to give grants. For those that have struggled with infertility and would like to give back we have a donate button on our website, which is tax-deductible. We set up an AmazonSmile account, and a portion of eligible purchases made on Amazon will go to us. All you have to do is go to and search "The Hope for Fertility Foundation."

Our mission is to spread infertility awareness, hope and encouragement. We do a lot of that through our various social media channels. We do daily posts on our Facebook page, and they are reflected on Instagram and Twitter. My personal favorite is Wednesday's, "Warrior of the Week." On Wednesday we spotlight a couple who is either in the midst of battling infertility or a couple who has been successful. Each week it is inspiring and gives so much hope as each journey is unique and different. We are always looking for those to share their journey, as it gives a glimmer of hope that we are not alone, enduring the pain that infertility brings.

Since we are only a year old, we are still getting our feet wet and trying to find what works for us. As we do this we have been invited to several fertility conferences. This past October our Foundation was invited to an infertility conference located here in Utah which was put on by Utah Infertility Resource Center (UIRC). The end of the week (April 29) we will be attending the American Fertility Expo that will be held in Pasadena, CA. We are so excited to be able to meet more couples struggling with infertility as it gives us hope to be able to want to help more couples. 

If you have any questions you can reach out to me via or check out our website, We would love to connect with each of you and hear your story!

The Not so Glamorous Parts of IVF

Tuesday, April 18

If you have never been through In Vitro Fertilization (IVF) you may not fully understand what women put their bodies through during IVF. Well, IVF is broken down into 3 different phases:

-Injections to stimulate eggs (10-14 days)
-Egg Retrieval
-and Embryo Transfer

There are unfortunately not so glamorous parts of IVF. I've come up with a few, based on my own personal experience with IVF.

1. Unnecessary weight gain - Before starting a normal IVF protocol, you are given birth control. Birth control makes you cranky (or at least it did for me), and want to eat all.the.things. Because of that you end up gaining weight. You also don't feel like exercising or being yourself.  

2. Bloated - Because you are on birth control, and during injections, you tend to become bloated. All those hormones (or no hormones) running through you tend to add on the excess water.

3. Feeling like a pin cushion - Giving yourself 3+ shots a day and trying to find a good spot on your belly that isn't already bruised or is as painful can be nearly impossible. By the end of the 10-14 days of injections you feel like you've become a pin cushion.

4. Worry at every ultrasound appointment - There is always this constant worry with ultrasound appointments. Worry about if my eggs are growing, will I have to do another day of injections, etc. When you've put so much time and money into IVF, you want it to be successful. You don't want to have to put your body through this again.

5. Surgery aka Egg Retrieval - Most of the time during egg retrieval you are asleep. I have heard of women being fully awake for egg retrieval, and have heard horrible stories. If you were put under for egg retrieval, you will most likely sleep for a good chunk of the day. You could be in pain or sore the days following the surgery.

6. Progesterone - Out of everything that I've listed, this by far beats all of them in not being so glamorous. When getting ready for embryo transfer you start Progesterone, which helps with sustaining a pregnancy. There are 3 different types of progesterone you can use; Progesterone in Oil (another shot), Progesterone Gel (inserted vaginally), and Progesterone Suppositories (inserted vaginally). You may be able to pick your poison. The reason I say that is you will either have vaginal leakage (a lot of it) or have your significant other give you a shot with a huge needle that will be injected in your butt daily. If you have a successful cycle, then you will be doing these until you are 10-12 weeks pregnant, so roughly 3 months.

7. The tears and heartache after a failed cycle - Because you've invested SO much time and money into IVF, you SO want it to be successful. After going through so many years of being infertile, you pray and wish your body would work and sustain a pregnancy. But when you get the call that you didn't achieve pregnancy, the tears come, the questions come, the heartache comes, and the "will we ever become parents" come. That is what makes this the not so glamorous part of IVF.

Is there anything that made IVF not so glamorous for you?
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Goals Update: February/March 2017

Tuesday, April 4

I was a little slacking in writing up and keeping track of my goals for February, and completely forgot to write up a post to help keep me on track. So I'm going to lump the past 2 months into one post.

My goals for the year are in bold and my progress is starting with an asterisk:

-Read my Scriptures/Conference talks for at least 5 minutes a day.
       *I have been reading/listening the scriptures a lot better the past 2 months. I have been sitting down and reading scriptures or listening to conference talks at least 3 out of the 7 days. It is a huge improvement for me since I wasn't doing it at all.
-Attend the temple (with or without Chase) at least 10 times.
     *I didn't get to the temple the past 2 months, but Chase and I are headed down to visit a clinic in Arizona regarding our nonprofit. We should have some time to get to the Mesa Temple. Whenever we vacation, if there is a temple near, we always try and make it an effort to visit the temple or do a session.
-Fulfill my Visiting Teaching each month (something I constantly struggle with).
     *I have visited or at least attempted to visit my sisters the past 2 months. I got a new companion at the end of February and we were able to go visit or drop a treat/note off.

-Sign up for 1-marathon, 1-half marathon, 1-10k and 1-5k to complete by the end of 2017.
     *I still haven't signed up for any races. I know St. George Marathon opens within the next few weeks. So I'm hoping I'll get a spot. If not then I'll find another race to run.
-Stick with strength training/Barre at least 3 times a week.
     *I thought I would enjoy exercising and staying active, but it's been a lot harder. To be honest it's almost like a chore for me to complete. It makes me really sad that that's how I'm thinking of being active. Aside from thinking that way, I have been making an effort to get to barre at least once a week. I did find a great pregnancy yoga YouTube video that has helped stretch and strengthen my legs/hips.
-Do some sort of cardio activity at least 3 times a week.
     *I have been trying to walk my dogs more and staying active by walking. I have run/walked a few times with Pepper, but it's hard because she wants to go so much faster than me.

-Do an activity/Date night we both enjoy once a month.
     *Chase and I went and saw Beauty and the Beast and Power Rangers in the theater. But other than that we haven't dressed up to go out.
-Being okay with asking for help from Chase (this is an ongoing one that I need to continue to do).
     *I've stepped it up and asked for help a lot more, since there are certain things that are just too physically laboring for me now. He's also stepped it up with helping around the house and me not asking.
-Have a better and more meaningful relationship with Chase (this is ongoing).
     *It's been hard to sit down and chat with him. Because there are so many other things to talk about aside from just us. But I know how important it is, so I will keep it up, and keep trying.

-Read/Listen to 5 books.
     *I haven't listened to any books, but I am reading a book called "How to Cope with IVF" by Silvia Dunn and will write a book review as soon as I'm finished.
-Be in the present and stop focusing on the "what if's" and the future.
     *I've not been the best, but I have tried to set my phone down more and to stay off of social media. I have also started unfollowing people on FB, not unfriending them, just unfollowing them. I felt like there was so much negativity and people often complaining that I thought I should just not follow hardly anyone. 
-Write in my journal at least once per month.
     *I haven't been writing in my journal. I know once per month right?! It should be a lot easier than it is. I will keep trying to remember. I have been keeping up with writing about what's been going on this pregnancy on my personal blog.

What are some goals you have set for yourself this year? Do you keep track of your goals monthly?
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Things that are Running Safety

Tuesday, March 28

After hearing what happened to Kelly out in Seattle while she was out for her morning run, I have been thinking of ways that I can be safer while I run.

I know I'm not focusing hard core on running right now (hello! 28 weeks pregnant), but when I was training hard for marathons safety wasn't one of my main concerns. I would carry pepper spray with me, but other than that I didn't even think to look in the public trail bathroom stalls before I used them. Which is what happened to Kelly.

As the weather gets warmer it's important that we stay safe while out being active. Here are a few of my tips, and I would love to know your tips for being safe while being outdoors alone:

1. Make sure you tell your significant other/parents where you're going, and what time they should expect you back
2. Consider Carrying Pepper Spray, Mase, or some of these self defense tools
3. A few cool apps that help keep you safe:
• Road ID App - like the bracelet, but for your phone and if you stop for more than 5 minutes it will send an alert to an emergency contact letting them know
bSafe - If you are in trouble there's a guardian alert button that will immediately notify your friends/family, and it can even set off a siren.
React Mobile - This app works with a bluetooth panic button. It also has an SOS button which allows you to send an emergency alert to your contacts, and the app calls local authorities with the "Help Me" button.
Kitestring - You do not need an app, all you need to do is sign up. They will send you a text after a certain number of minutes (you decide) and when you don't respond it will send an alert to your emergency contacts.
4. Use an app like "Find Friends" or "Life360" for family/friends to be able to see where you're at
5.  Consider taking a self defense class to know how to defend yourself. That is one of the best things you can do for yourself. Ask your local police or do a search online to find some classes
6. Run with your dog. Your dog is your loyal companion they will want to protect you in anyway they can. Yes they want us to be safe, but we also want them to be safe
7. Wear a reflective vest or reflective clothing 

Something you may not know about me, I took karate when I was younger. My dad thought it would be beneficial since I was having issues with a few girls. I've never had to use it as self defense, but I have always imagined how I would take out an attacker if I were ever in that situation. I know each situation is different, but I try and visualize me succeeding.

Well Simplisafe has offered to let me share this graphic with you on health and safety. They also know some things about safety, and they're an authority on home security systems.

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